I had a shit experience at health services today. don't you love how therapists can have you all figured out after talking to you for a half hour? and the way you can speak to two of them separately who are both working on your case, but they won't communicate to each other and you therefore have to repeat yourself, which just further postpones the actual therapy? yeah, that's great.
it was like he wasn't listening, like he didn't believe me. and when people don't believe me, I stop believing myself - I just feel like a fucking crazy freak.
I'm isolated and I have deep-seated insecurities because I've had problems drinking for four or five years. not because the first fifteen years of my life were hell. no.
anyway, maybe I'm just too skeptical for any of this to work for me. just because I'm a failure doesn't mean standard mental health procedure is a failure. nor does it mean that the school is a failure.
but it seems like I should be able to get some kind of help. yeah?